Liquid fasted.

38 kcalories from 1 low-cal hot chocolate (Options) and that my dears is it.

I'll update points later.
Watching the Fearne Cotton documentary and soon (when YouTube works properly again) I plan on posting some episodes of Intervention.

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Control is mine again?

I can do it.
I can say it.
"I never want to eat again."
I can mean it.

In November/December, when I was at my worst, I could say it. I meant it. I'd recite it and feel proud. Or sometimes I'd just feel drained and suicidal. Either way control was mine.

I feel so in control. I've eaten normally, but before dinner, I was emotional, I felt horrible, I was crying and feeling really shit. I ate dinner, it was disgusting, fatty, I finished it but it was a struggle, especially towards the end.

Anyway, so I think I'm tea fasting tomorrow and trying not to feel like shit.

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Tomorrow,

I'd like to fruit/veg fast.
I don't know if I will, but I'll probably be able to until dinnertime, then I'll just have a various vegeterian protein.
I'll do the same the next day methinks.
I want to have fewer than 1,000 calories.

I'm fairly determined, but I don't know...

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